heh......wut a fucked up day......didnt like today even for a bit.....i wish i wouldnt remember today....and cuz of wut i heard...really broke my heart.....i think wut i heard....wus a fucken burn...it sucked like CRAZY!!...shit...heh...im da stupid one.......damn.....it gave me a feeling dat i was da only one acting like dis.....it was only my feelings...but not da other persons.....it really sucked......i guess i should stop  think about it.....im only becoming a junior in high skool anyways......but today was really a day of darkness......never been dis gayed up before...hoo can understand me.....i dont think anyone does......well...heres da song of the moment...*clearing throat

sitting by the window, singing songs of love wishing u were here because the memorys not enough,wear my mask in silence,pretending im alright,if u could see, then u would be here standing by my side, it may be hard to believe but girl ur da only one i need, it may be hard along the way,its this feeling i get when blue skies turn to grey,

feels like im walking in the rain, i find myself trying to wash away the pain, cause i need u to give me some shelter, cause im fading away and baby,im walking in the rain

every single hour of every single day i need to cry, my eyes are dry, ive cried my tears away,cant help but remember how u made me feel, u depressed my soul and made me whole,u made my life complete

of all we've said and done remains the memories of the days wen life was fun, but now wen u are gone, i sit alone to watch the setting of the sun, feels like im walking in the rain, i find myself trying to wash away the pain cause i need u to give me some shelter cause im fading away and baby, im walking in the rain........

a1-walking in the rain......

saying i love u is not da words i want to hear from u, its not dat i want u, not say but if u only knew, how easy it would be to show me how u feel , more than words is all u have to do to make it real, den u wouldnt have to say, dat u love me.....cuz id already kno.....wut would u do, if my heart was torn in 2, more dan words to show u feel dat ur love for me is real, wut would u say, if i took those words away, then u could've made things new just by saying i love you...........now dat ive tried to talk to u and make u understand ,all u have to do is close ur eyes and just reach out ur hands, and touch me hold me close dont ever let me go...more than words is all i ever needed u to show den u wouldnt have to say, dat u love me.......cuz id already kno.........

wut a nice song.........

xtreme-more than words (new version)

eric clapton-more than words(old version)

...........*sigh

can somebody tell me where, i might feel like myself again, and how long it would be till i can face dis reality, my friends are calling but i cant get out of bed, becuz im so afraid dat these tears would start to fall again, so wut can i say,girl wat can i do, baby cant u see dat im missing u and theres nowhere to run and nowhere to hide, girl u kno its tearing me up inside...and i beg u plz give it one more try, u kno we were so good together...girl i need a kiss...not a kiss goodbye.............................

i feel like SHIT..........dont kno wut to do....

heyhey there...hows it going?

i am always sorry to ppl...but never can be dis much sorry to a person....it seems dat i make her feel down and blue...and all she did for me was make me smile and laugh....but if i dont even picture her in my mind for one day..i think i'll go crazy...but im always hurting her...im sorry hispanic...